There was another dream in a different setting right before this one, but I don’t recall. In this dream I was back in my childhood home, my grandma had passed away and my grandpa was still there (the opposite of reality).
I just woke up and got out of bed, I was in my grandparent’s bedroom, but in the dream it was mine. My mom had already gone to the office and my dad was about to leave for work. He knocked on my parent’s bedroom door, in the dream it was my grandparent’s, and told my grandpa that he should get up. My grandpa opened the door and walked out, he was all dressed up and he looked like when he was 70 years old. He looked really well. He said to my dad: I need to go to the hospital, can you give me a ride? My dad said: sure. As they were leaving, I said: grandpa, good luck! He turned around, gave me a thumb up and said: same to you, good luck!
I stood in front of the wardrobe mirror in the bedroom, only it appeared to be the vanity table from my aunt’s, or it could also be the one I have now, I don’t quite remember. I was getting dressed, I decided to wear the black and white blouse, which I actually have in real life – hanging in my closet, to mourn the death of my grandma. I had a red-ish bustier underneath it. As I was buttoning up the blouse, it downed on me that all of my grandparents were now gone, from both paternal and maternal side. I had all four of them with me, and just like that, I had none. I felt something when I realized this, not sure how to describe that feeling, it’s a kind of sadness but also a sense of acceptance and understanding that this is the fact of life.
Suddenly the scene of my dream changed. I was sitting in front of a desktop computer (together with someone, I think it’s my mom), we needed to do something for my grandparents online. On the webpage there was this picture calendar, if an account was deactivated, the page with that person’s photo would flip away, like the way you rip off a page from an actual paper calendar. Then I saw the one left on the screen was a lady in her 20s playing a piano, although I don’t recognise her in real life, in my dream I think that’s my mom. And I thought, damn she is beautiful.
Then I woke up, I felt it’s almost time to get up, but when I looked at the clock, it was 3:17.
Analysis
Other people in our dreams usually represent a part of ourselves or a situation we’re dealing with in life. Those people might have motivated or helped us, their appearance could also mean that all of our efforts will come to fruition.
Four people appeared in my dream, 3 in person and 1 in thoughts. They’re the people I love the most in this world. I haven’t figured out what my parent’s appearance meant, but I think I know the message from my grandparent’s part.
Seeing my grandpa alive and well again, actually gave me some kind of closure. Since I was thousands of miles away when he passed away, it all seemed so surreal. I didn’t really face the fact that he’s physically gone, and I didn’t want to process this reality. In the dream it really felt like he was looking sharp and ready to move on, and I got to wish him all the best in his journey towards a new circle of life. He also wished me luck like he always did before, he’s always encouraged me, believed me and supported me no matter what. I think through this dream, we were able to say goodbye to each other, and that, has brought me a little bit of peace. The feeling that death isn’t the end, that he will keep on living in another realm, in a different form and perhaps in time, as a different person, has given me comfort. ❤️
In the dream my grandma has passed away, I didn’t see her but she was in my mind the whole time. First I thought it’s because I’m scared to lose her, she raised me and we’ve always shared a special bond. But since in the dream I’m more of “accepting it” than sad, that’s when I know, the grandma in my dream was a symbol.
Death in dreams means there’s some sort of change or ending happening in real life. To the subconscious mind, this represents the end of life as we now know it. The person we dreamed passing is especially significant, as we are usually using them to represent a characteristic, or personal quality of our own. I guess that’s a sign that I am releasing or should release some similar views and traits we share.
Both my grandma and I feel quite disappointed in certain things and people, especially those we think we have given the most to and even sacrificed a part of our lives for. We don’t feel like we get back the equal amount of attention and care we give out and deserve. We can be paranoid and insecure, which is also why external validations matter a lot to us. We can both be quite pessimistic at times but still put up a strong, jolly front for other people, especially for our loved ones. My grandma always takes care of others first and forgets about herself, I’m not that nice 😂 but I do tend to tug away my feelings and ensure others’ don’t get hurt.
I need to release the resentment from not getting the things or validations I seek or think I deserve. I need to let go of the people who don’t return my affections back. Because this is the fact of life, it’s not always fair, we don’t always get back the good we put out there. We need to choose to love and to do good, we also need to love and do good without expecting anything in return.
I need to practice self-love, focus more on the now, on the things I have and the people who actually care about me. Others’ judgements don’t really matter, we just need to do our best, know and accept what we cannot change or dominate in life.
Everything we could ever need,
is already within us. 🥰
Inner Orbit 